kalo tentang lo, gue bingung. gue cuman bisa nangis sendiri, diem, ngerasa bodoh.

heyo saying hello! 9:26 AM

seabad ga pernah nge post. yaudah.

i change a lot! i'm a big girl now.

ga percaya?

liat aja.

dadah!

don't you think its funny? 2:50 PM

you have a friend who you share your sadness and happiness for almost 5 years. a friend who have a same interest in almost anything that matter in life. suddenly......... everything change.

the situation that change, not the person.

your friend who you depend for, did not even telling you anything , and you'll stand there like a fool, you left the people when the people left you out (loh kok nyanyi)

i just hope that you keep all my secret, not mocking me (because well, you were even mocking my friend), and realize who you are.

of course i forgive you, it just i don't feel right talking with you anymore (that's why i'm writing these post and tweet), maybe you should try harder ( i don't even know until now, what should you do, or what should i do) if you think that i'm important enough for ya.

believe me, i'm sad, i just try not to. i'm afraid the more i respond thing to you, the more you will think that i like you (?), please that hurts.a.lot. after all this time, you think that i like you? cheezez.

look, you are the one who leave me without explanation, if i know what is your purpose.. i will support you , ya know? you can tell everyone that i like you and mad with you because you like another girl, but you know the truth don't ya? because all of that kind thing, you are successful into making me like a very bad person and now i feel like the one who suppose to say, sorry.

Stop apologize, okay?

it's funny for a person you'd think you know well. i'm quite understand now, a true friend is hard to find , the ordinary one will come and leave you. the same ordinary one. they come and go! sayonara! just sayin.............

力 3:50 PM

chika+kara means girl power in japanese.

we can spend full day together.

we did stupid thing together.

we are cool together.

in my birthday, she will stay by my side all day long.

i know her too well, she either.

she made me love green tea too much.

i love spending my time with her.

she can come to my house everytime, everyhour.

we have a dream , we want to be in the amazing race asia one day.

we change a lot, we have a fight, and we are still a bestfriend until know.

love you : )

ps (this is secret):

we are yang & meredith in grey's anatomy.

we are serena & blair in gossip girl.

wait wait, no , we are way better and cooler .

unknown 5:16 AM

gini, pernah ga sih lo peduli sama orang? peduli banget. Bahkan lo ga bakal mikirin perasaan lo sendiri? Ga peduli semua orang bakal nge judge lo apa , sampe mau lo dikatain kek mau di hina kek, yang penting, terserah pake cara apa yang pasti orang itu harus seneng, sukses, dan dapet apa yang dia mau. Mau gue egois mikir dengan cara gue sendiri, asalkan emang itu bener bakal buat hidup lo lebih bahagia, indah tanpa masalah, gue bakal lakuin itu.

itu yang gue rasain sekarang. dan hidup gue bahagia akan hal itu. (titik)

jadi, mau gue nangis, mau gue kangen banget, mau gue selalu stalkingin dia tiap hari, mau gue sok ga tau dan ga kenal dia, mau gue gimana juga menderitanya, gue punya tujuan , "buat dia seneng".

JADI.........orang yang di sana, yang menjadi alasan atas semua perbuatan gue, yang benci banget sama gue, ini faktanya. Gue kuat kok mau lo buat gue gimana aja, asal, lo harus buat dia seneng, karena dia penting buat gue. Gue bisa kok menghilang.

udahan yuk? cape kan? selesai kan? main-mainnya udah selesai. nyesel kan? selesai ya.

do what i need to do. this is it. 9:38 AM

sweet disposition

never too soon

oh reckless abandon

like no one's

watching you

a moment, a love

a dream, a laugh

a kiss, a cry

our rights, our wrongs

just stay there

cause i'll be comin over

and while our bloods still young

it's so young

it runs

and we won't stop til it's over

won't stop to surrender

songs of desperation

I played them for you