Wha?

2011-06-27T19:44:00.001-07:00

kalo tentang lo, gue bingung. gue cuman bisa nangis sendiri, diem, ngerasa bodoh.

heyo saying hello!

2011-03-19T09:26:00.000-07:00

seabad ga pernah nge post. yaudah.

i change a lot! i'm a big girl now.

ga percaya?

liat aja.

dadah!

don't you think its funny?

2010-12-19T14:50:00.000-08:00

you have a friend who you share your sadness and happiness for almost 5 years. a friend who have a same interest in almost anything that matter in life. suddenly......... everything change.

the situation that change, not the person.

your friend who you depend for, did not even telling you anything , and you'll stand there like a fool, you left the people when the people left you out (loh kok nyanyi)

i just hope that you keep all my secret, not mocking me (because well, you were even mocking my friend), and realize who you are.

of course i forgive you, it just i don't feel right talking with you anymore (that's why i'm writing these post and tweet), ~~maybe you should try harder~~ ( i don't even know until now, what should you do, or what should i do) if you think that i'm important enough for ya.

believe me, i'm sad, i just try not to. i'm afraid the more i respond thing to you, the more you will think that i like you (?), please that hurts.a.lot. after all this time, you think that i like you? cheezez.

look, you are the one who leave me without explanation, if i know what is your purpose.. i will support you , ya know? you can tell everyone that i like you and mad with you because you like another girl, but you know the truth don't ya? because all of that kind thing, you are successful into making me like a very bad person and now i feel like the one who suppose to say, sorry.

Stop apologize, okay?

it's funny for a person you'd think you know well. i'm quite understand now, a true friend is hard to find , the ordinary one will come and leave you. the same ordinary one. they come and go! sayonara! just sayin.............

力

2010-12-09T15:50:00.000-08:00

chika+kara means girl power in japanese.

we can spend full day together.

we did stupid thing together.

we are cool together.

in my birthday, she will stay by my side all day long.

i know her too well, she either.

she made me love green tea too much.

i love spending my time with her.

she can come to my house everytime, everyhour.

we have a dream , we want to be in the amazing race asia one day.

we change a lot, we have a fight, and we are still a bestfriend until know.

love you : )

ps (this is secret):

we are yang & meredith in grey's anatomy.

we are serena & blair in gossip girl.

wait wait, no , we are way better and cooler .

unknown

2010-11-30T05:16:00.001-08:00

gini, pernah ga sih lo peduli sama orang? peduli banget. Bahkan lo ga bakal mikirin perasaan lo sendiri? Ga peduli semua orang bakal nge judge lo apa , sampe mau lo dikatain kek mau di hina kek, yang penting, terserah pake cara apa yang pasti orang itu harus seneng, sukses, dan dapet apa yang dia mau. Mau gue egois mikir dengan cara gue sendiri, asalkan emang itu bener bakal buat hidup lo lebih bahagia, indah tanpa masalah, gue bakal lakuin itu.

itu yang gue rasain sekarang. dan hidup gue bahagia akan hal itu. (titik)

jadi, mau gue nangis, mau gue kangen banget, mau gue selalu stalkingin dia tiap hari, mau gue sok ga tau dan ga kenal dia, mau gue gimana juga menderitanya, gue punya tujuan , "buat dia seneng".

JADI.........orang yang di sana, yang menjadi alasan atas semua perbuatan gue, yang benci banget sama gue, ini faktanya. Gue kuat kok mau lo buat gue gimana aja, asal, lo harus buat dia seneng, karena dia penting buat gue. Gue bisa kok menghilang.

2010-08-10T22:00:00.001-07:00

udahan yuk? cape kan? selesai kan? main-mainnya udah selesai. nyesel kan? selesai ya.

do what i need to do. this is it.

2010-07-29T09:38:00.000-07:00

sweet disposition

never too soon

oh reckless abandon

like no one's

watching you

a moment, a love

a dream, a laugh

a kiss, a cry

our rights, our wrongs

just stay there

cause i'll be comin over

and while our bloods still young

it's so young

it runs

and we won't stop til it's over

won't stop to surrender

songs of desperation

I played them for you

2010-07-23T22:35:00.001-07:00

I know one thing for sure that I don't know you at all . And we're losing our way and gone forever and ever after. Goodbye ~
Sent from my AXIS Worry Free BlackBerry® smartphone

sedih

2010-07-07T22:54:00.000-07:00

ucul nih gue nge post sambil nangis.

baru tau perasaannya bakal kaya gini,

kelas baru. semua baru. kepikiran ini :

gue ngomong korea sama siapa kalo bukan sama rizka. gue bisa ngatain orang dan alay2an sama siapa kalo bukan sama tata. gue bisa curhat dan nerima ke freak-an gue sama siapa kalo bukan sama nindy. gue harus meluk siapa kalo lagi sedih kalo bukan sama inggrith. gue harus suram sama siapa kalo bukan sama abang si alam. gue harus ngomongin mesis dan segala macem unek2 gajelas ama siapa kalo bukan sama hafizh. gue bisa nyiksa siapa kalo bukan sama rafa. gue bisa ngeliatin idung siapa dan minta belajar ampe puas kalo bukan sama darin. gue bisa main mabuk2an sama siapa kalo bukan sama faiz. gue harus ngomongin musik2 yang setipe ama gue ama siapa kalo bukan sama ucok. gue harus ama siapa biar ga bosen denger life2 story nya yang unik kalo bukan ama rara. gue harus ke siapa kalo mau ketawa dan ngebawa suasana banget kalo bukan ama jona. gue harus nyiksa siapa kalo bukan ama rafa? yaudah diem aja . stop. gue nangis. berhenti. pusing.

semoga.Allah tau yang terbaik.

kelas gue bakal seru lagi, amin.

2010-07-01T03:12:00.000-07:00

kenapa gue selalu merasakan hal itu, di posisi dan kondisi yang salah, di waktu yang salah, dengan orang yang salah.

dan selalu ada aja yang menyadarkan gue, dan selalu ada aja yang ngebuat "uh" .

sakit hati , jealous iya, tapi pingin.

gangerti,bye.

2010-07-01T03:03:00.000-07:00

Misery is all we know lately

Saturday's are all the same

Sympathy is overrated

Like a snapshot when you've lost the game

Now it's the funeral I become the serial killer of us all

No I don't wanna get thrown in your ocean

Don't try

You know that we already know you

It's over

At your, own burial don't forget to cry

At your, own burial

Looking at my 81st birthday

Everyday this body goes to waste

Remembering how I would raise an army when we went back to your place

Now it's the funeral I become a serial killer of us all

No I, don't wanna get thrown in your ocean

Don't try, you know that we already know you

It's over

At your own burial, don't forget to cry

-burial by miike snow

2010-06-30T06:08:00.000-07:00

2010-06-24T20:09:00.000-07:00

lagi bingung. kalo ga ada kerjaan, pasti jadi mikir ini itu.

cie mau ultah loh gue, yaudah met yaw.

kayanya mau mulai aktif lagi nih nge blog, cuman bakal sering pake mobil nge postnya. cape deh ntar isinya curhatan semua. Kalo lagi libur, percaya deh , blog bakal aktif.

umur 17, punya goal punya wish:

masuk kuliah. makin dewasa. gamau curhat di twitter. mau di pendem sendiri aja. paling buruk nulis di blog. ga ada yang baca ini kan ya~ udah ga eksis. palingan juga siapa gitu mondar mandir lewat bentar liat post gue, cuman ga ada yang ngikutin ini.

yaudah gitu aja, ga penting.

I miss this moment, suddenly

2010-06-07T05:33:00.001-07:00

iseng buka folder tau2 malah ke folder ini, terus kangen, buka puasa bareng lagi yok?

freaks.

2010-05-28T02:21:00.000-07:00

gue bukan orang yang sedih kalo perpisahan. sedih sih, tapi ga biasa mengungkapkannya, gue lebih bisa diem, ngeliatin, dan yaudah deh gitu. gimana ya, kalo perpisahan tuh, beda.

Tapi......... gue kemaren nangis, dan hari ini kepikiran, kepikiran ipa f.

Gue juga bukan orang yang susah terima hal baru, bukan. cuman , gini pemikiran gue

Setahun ini setiap gue bangun pagi, di benak gue cuman, "ketawa ntar di ipa f, udah sekolah aja". Iya, ipa f itu tempat yang bisa buat gue ketawa, gimana pun kondisinya,gimana pun bt nya lo, gimana pun sedihnya lo pas di rumah. Dalam 1 hari, gue ngerasa punya sesuatu yang berarti.

Di ipa f, semua ke anehan lo, kekurangan lo itu bisa di terima. Itu kenapa kita freaks. Gue tau gue aneh, gue suka tiba2 nangis , suka tiba2 bt sama orang, tapi kalo di ipa f........gue bahagia.

Anak-anak ipa f itu beda, beda dalam sesuatu hal, dan mungkin cuman lo yang di dalemnya yang ngerti itu. Lo bisa aja nge judge kita "alah sok beda lo, padahal sama aja kali ama kelas yang lainnya", mungkin, lo salah.

Kita itu aneh, berbeda, makanya kita bisa saling menerima.

Ini hal yang bikin gue sedih, kalo inget orang2 ini:

Kemaren gue meluk rizka, meluk banget , dan gue mikir "gue naik kelas akan kaya orang bego ngomong monolog tentang korea sendirian". Gue liat darin "kapan gue bisa ketemu orang se tengil ini". Gue liat nindy "kapan gue bisa dapet temen sebangku se galak, se ibu-ibu, dan se pingky dia". Gue liat tata "kapan gue bisa ketemu orang yang gue liat mukanya aja gue ketawa". Gue liat jona "kapan gue bisa ketemu orang yang selalu bisa buat sesuana jadi asik". Gue liat hafizh "kapan gue bisa sekelas sama orang yang emang nyambung banget ama gue dalam apapun". Gue liat ucok "kapan gue bisa selalu ngomong apaan sih, tanpa orangnya ngambek", Gue liat rara "kapan gue bisa sekelas ama orang selabil dan se drama queen kaya dia". Gue liat inggrith "kapan gue bisa sekelas sama orang yang bener2 rajin, bisa di curhatin apa aja ". Gue liat alam "kapan gue bisa ketemu orang se binal dan sesuram ini tapi jadi ketua kelas" . Gue liat dika "kapan gue ketemu orang se annoying dan se jorok ini tapi pinter banget". Gue liat faiz "kapan gue ketemu orang yang bisa tiba tiba joget korea di depan kelas". Gue liat dimas "Kapan gue ketemu orang yang se benernya pinter , tapi sok ga pinter, freak, tapi ketua pk". Sebenernya masalahnya satu, "kapan gue ketemu semua orang itu dalam satu waktu yang sama"

Kayanya gue bakal kangen deh, kangen di gangguin di tarik rambutnya, kangen di bilang ambegan, kangen ngomongin korea sama golda,shaula,citra. Kangen main botol mabok-mabokan. Kangen ngerjain orang yang ulang tahun pas waktu pulang sekolah. Kangen ketawa bareng kalian.

All i wanna say is, thanks for all the good memories you left ipa f :)) gonna miss you so much!

this is true

2010-05-19T03:09:00.000-07:00

"Everyone, at some point in their lives, wakes up in the middle of the night with the feeling that they are all alone in the world, and that nobody loves them now and that nobody will ever love them, and that they will never have a decent night's sleep again and will spend their lives wandering blearily around a loveless landscape, hoping desperately that their circumstances will improve, but suspecting, in their heart of hearts, that they will remain unloved forever. The best thing to do in these circumstances is to wake somebody else up, so that they can feel this way, too."
— Lemony Snicket (Horseradish: Bitter Truths You Can't Avoid)

blind.

2010-04-25T03:18:00.000-07:00

lucu, iya ga sih?

2010-01-25T05:41:00.000-08:00

ngebuka blog ini dan, ketawa : D HAHAHA mau iseng nge post lagi aaah.......

biarin deh orang-orang taunya gue ga make blog ini, abis mau ngasitauin juga buat apa males kesannya "nih anak plin plan amat sih ganti-ganti blog mulu", lagipula blogger kan udah ga begitu "in" iya kaan? semua orang berpindah ke tumblr. oweleh ini udah 2010 loh dan my last post was august 2009 , funny really.

1. Kemana aja cik?

kemana mana menerjang badai kehidupan yang warna warni seperti pelangi hingga takjub bisa melewati nya.

2. 2010 ?

o iya 2010 ya, agak punya sedikit harapan tahun ini menjadi sangat lebih baik, amin.

3. Korea? what the?

iya iya, tau ah ini salah siapa gitu bermula dari temen smp gue namanya shabrina yang mengenalkan gue dengan super junior dan ga tau sekarang udah gila ama korea ampe 2pm, 2ne1, big bang, SHINee, ga tau deh males nyebutinnya, yes im freak enough. Alhamdulillah udah bisa nularin anak 8, ampe sekarang jadi banyak banget yang suka SEMUA SALAH RIZKA.

4. 8 gimana?

gue masuk kelas baru di ipa f. IPA FREAK. seriously. Are you freak enough to be in our class ? if not , then just go.

5. Freak apaan sih ?

Paling freak dan masternya freak tuh si tata. Freak korea ada gue ama rizka, freak pinternya ada darin, freak gambar aneh aneh lucu ngelawak si hafizh, freak dancing korea dan pemalas tapi pinter si faiz, freak suramnya si alam. Yaudah, cape kan? we have our own way to be freak enough. Yaudah ini gue ngomong gini aja freak.

6. MESIS gimana MESIS?

mesis apaan sih? ga deng canda, itu tuh media siswa subsi di 8 yang paling bagus terlihat pacakaging nya. Ya............................ (stop di sini aja)

Oke that's a little update about me, ga penting ya? lucu tapi. Ini ada tambahan, buat yang pingin liat transformasi gue dari 8 agustus hingga 25 januari sekarang ini. c'ya!!

*he-eh iya gue lurusin rambut diem aje lu .

Updating with non sense

2009-10-01T06:11:00.000-07:00

Current mood : I know it's fragile. But, is it breakable?

Dedicated to my friends, Love ya

2009-09-24T15:59:00.000-07:00

I believe there are many things that we have to believe. We have to believe god, the chemy formula, the air around us, many thing. But i do believe, relationship between people is abstract. Love & Friendship is the main idea. Quotes that i always wondering and believe is :

1. Everybody's changing

Yes, everybody's changing, and i hate that fact because we have to adjust anything that we had startfrom the zero point again.

2. Friendship is more worth it than loveship

i dont think so , love is more worth it but friendship is what we need it

3. Friendship is flow like a rollercoaster

This one. I do agree. Sometimes i hate my friend, i mocked & cursed them, but , i need them. Every time i got a problem, i always ask their opinion, and need them to make me relax and feel happy. That's what i thought.

Today, i wanna dedicate this post for my best friend who still with me, since i know what the differences between friend & enemy. ( i ain't put the name due who is the most close one, i do it randomly)

IzraFerrasta

Haha i know when you read it, you will be happy because you are the first zra, but trust me , i wrote it randomly. Yesterday, i went to pondok indah mall with him. When i go with him, i always believe that i will be happy. Yes, he is so fun,big, ridiculous, unexpected, but when i have a problem or something serious he will respond me so well. If i talk with him, i feel sure and open minded. Well, i hope our relationship doesn't change at all, i wanna have a friend like you until i'm going old. Because i need jokes like you always did zra. Oh yes, one more thing, he got that bastard nice voice. Oh i forget to mention, that he eat a lot, i mean eat everyone's food a lot. HAHAHA

KaraCitraKalandra

Believe me, i treat her like my own sister. Yes, my own sister. She can come to my house every time just to tell her problem- any problem. I don't know how to describe her. Hmm, she is le-mot , pretty , and always stand behind me. I love her more than anything , when i was in junior highschool, when everybody is bacsktabbing me, she is the only one who still beside me. She know All my problem, my little-big dirty secret, ahh anything. Every time i cry, and feel upset, she is the first person that i call. The fun fact is, if i wanna try something bad for the first time, i tried it with kara. Oh yes one more thing, many people told me that i was like a unseperated person with her, because everytime i go to the mall, 80% of them, i go with kara.

KirdaSatyaRamadhan

I hait him. I cursed and mocked him a lot. But i do tell many thing in detail to him, if i feel confused i text him. He used (please stress this one, used), to be a very nice boy, fun, annoying, friendly friend. But i don't know i felt different now. He is uppish, but i still talk and share many thing to him. He is humorous when he online in computer, he has a good respond to when he online and chat with me in computer. Haha, i care for you so much, yeah because of his age (sorry to mention it kiz), he is a little bit mature. But he is stubborn & prestige. I told ya, i mock him a lot, but believe me this person is who i need it the most. Even he is annoying, and he was so busy & eksis and it looks like he doesn't have a time at all for hang out anymore,but the truth is i need him. Sorry for what i said in my text message, i didn't mean it. OH YES, he likes to abuse me a lot. He likes to strangle me - haha jokes.

MegaNurfitriyana

Meggy, a girl that i adore. I like her, she is easy going, and solve a problem with an easy solution, person that had a lot of love problem for now. She is eksis too, i like to hang out with her it seems like a whole world knows her. I like to share my feelings & problem with her. You know what? sometimes i jealous for anything that she had. I feel warm, save (yaelah i didn't mean that you are a wonder woman), enjoy, and feel like being my self when i was around her. Mega is the first person that i search when i start online.

FaisalWidiNugraha

I know you must be surprised that i mention your name in here right? But for sure, when i happy, moody, sad, any emotion that i will tel him. Sometimes i feel bad about me for being so selfish with you cul, i always talk a lot, it seems like you always know what i feel, and what will i told you. I'm sorry for not asking you 'how are you?', 'do you have any problem?'. Yes i'm being selfish. You are the best kiikikiki, oh yes one more thing HAPPY BIRTHDAY CUL! Sorry for the belated birthday text C;

That's all. This is my feelings about all of my best friend who are beside me every time, i feel so great and blessed for having a friend like you guys. I love you ALL!

Speedy Karting

2009-09-18T03:40:00.000-07:00

this activiy make me sense of adrenaline and shaken the unexpected feeling.

Little sunshine

2009-09-17T07:30:00.000-07:00

3 days, with the different places. And i still ain't feel fun. I wonder how is the warm scents from the sunny day, and how is the feeling of touching the sand. Can i just runaway for a second? Just a second, please. Recently, i'm having a break fasting with my friend. With my 15 girls, mesis and my elementary friend. 3 places, but no luck. I still feel suspicious, tense full of pressure and unhappy. I feel like floating. Hmm, i think i have a talent on poker-ing my face.

Effete

2009-09-14T02:13:00.000-07:00

Lagi males nih, not in a good mood banget. My current situation is so unwanted. Gue pingin deh seneng-seneng, pergi bareng temen yang bener bener bisa buat gue seneng. I really miss a fun atmosphere, where i can forget all the problem that i had. Satu hari aja, satu hari yang bener bener buat gue fun, buat gue ga desperate. Biasanya, yang bisa buat gue ketawa, izra. Tapi, aaa dia ga tau ilang kemana. Haha ga tau tuh dia kemana, padahal dia bener bener bisa buat gue ketawa gitu, dia gila sih. Ya, males nulis apa-apa juga sih, bener bener under pressure. O iya, gue juga kangen deh sama temen smp gue, tapi tuh yang di kangenin bukan their appereance, tapi kangen suasana-nya. Kangen.Jadi inget jaman smp dulu, c'ya!

Love Letter

2009-09-06T06:34:00.000-07:00

Oh, i can't wait much longer. Don't you see it? They wrote my lovely country, Indonesia

I Loveeeeeeee Today

2009-09-04T09:00:00.000-07:00

I Adore K So Much. Who is K?

today was so fun because of him.

One More Important Thing, Happy Birthday Nanda & Happy Birthday My Fellow Freak Alien, Where are you & I miss you. Sombooooooooooong banget sih lo Fik. HAHAHA Those picture upthere is my picture that i made it for him. It's us, a freaky night alien.

Earthquake

2009-09-02T07:54:00.000-07:00

Yes, Earthquake.

a big earthquake that makes me a little bit dizzy , the first earthquake that i ever worried of.

I wondering about my experience today in my life, it called 'secret'. Sometimes secret does make sense, somehow it makes you special, but it also annoying and full of jealousy. There are many secrets in front of my eyes right now, somehow they seems like to invite me to play hide and seek or detective games. I'm curious about it. Don't whisper anything in front of me, or i will try to find out what secret are you hiding about. You know what ? i eager to know anything, especially in this case.

Current Stress

2009-09-01T00:43:00.000-07:00

Yesss I'm Boring & Starving right now, i shouldn't said that . I have an english task , and i should making the cover of paper , the theme is about 'me' my self. Suddenly , i have a personal crisis. I don't know who am i, i don't know myself anymore. Pff what a bad thing too say. So i think i'm just gonna put my name on that cover with a little picture.

My current mood is not good at all. Sometimes i feel why do i have to be always pretending like there are nothing happened. I Felt why i must be the one for the blame?

Today at my class , i read a magazine that told about marshanda extreme video. Well, i have a person that i hate so much, that bitch who doesn't know friendship,that chicky who don't know to say thanks at all and throw me like a dumb. I wonder how about if i shout her name on a video and told everybody in this world about her bad attitude so everybody in this world know how bad she is. Yes, i inspired by that marshanda thing. But, i realize something if i did that, it means i'm childish and it seems that i lose on it. So, i have another good plan, for them - the person i hate so much. I swear, i want to be a success person who have many company (well for sure i want to be a doctor, but i will find a way to be a bussiness girl too c:), i want to be a person that everybody need it, AND, if they go to my company for asking help either to get a sponsored, company cooperated or anything that related to my company, I will make them feel sorry for make me having a bad memory about them.

Yes, i really hate them. Oh my god for a sec i forgot that i'm having a fasting.

One More Thing & This one is important:

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY LOVELY MENTE! I WISH YOU ALL THE THINGS THAT YOU WANT! I MISS YOU SO MUCH

c : "

The Track

2009-08-31T07:49:00.000-07:00

I tried and tried to let you know
I love you but I'm letting go
It may not last but I don't know
Just don't know

If you don't know
Then you can't care
And you show up
But you're not there
But I'm waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

Maroon 5 - Nothing Last Forever

Dedicated for my self for being so stupid since i know you and keep thingking about you everyday and every night. I still have to keep it on a right track so, i can't lose you and you will need me as your mates. I'm not missing you anymore.

The Beginning

2009-08-31T07:09:00.000-07:00

I've been making 3 blogs until now. I made this new blog because, i wanna feel free to express anything here. I don't want to use this blog for social thing, so i don't use a cbox anymore. But i welcome your comment, and i make this blog for me and my friend. I hate to said this but i'm so sorry for people who wants to know me from here or making me as a new friend from this blog, for once more i want to stress it, this blog is not for social thing.

Maybe i will just write what i think and what i feel and i don't care what people judgement, yes i'm an egoism person. Maybe you don't understand what i mean, but it's okay , my opinion is indescribable. Maybe i just put a song lyrics or pictures that means a lot to me , and also you don't understand it. Or maybe i don't write anything and don't write anything here anymore and abandon this blog (of course i'm a moody person).

Thanks a lot reader for understanding me. Enjoy what will you read if you like it , but just leave it for god sake because it's my life not yours, are you interesting in others life problem? For sure, i believe that your life are more worth it than mine.

omegle?

2009-07-10T08:06:00.000-07:00

HAHAHA READ THIS, BELIEVE IT OR NOT

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Stranger: hi

You: hellow

Stranger: asl?

You: i'm indonesian

You: 16 female

Stranger: 18 female

You: from?

Stranger: South Korea

You: wow

You: i like korea

Stranger: Oh

You: i like suju

Stranger: suju what?

You: super junior

You: do you know it?

Stranger: yes

Stranger: in my school

Stranger: kim hee chul's sister

Stranger: real!!!

Stranger: real real real

Stranger: you believe it?

Stranger: it's rela

Stranger: real

You: HAH

You: REALLY?

You: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

You: oh no

You: oh my god

You: i feel i wanna cry

Stranger: What member do you like?

You: i'm so excited

You: would you ask him to get his signature or something

Stranger: yes

Stranger: it's possible

You: oh my god

You: may i keep intouch with you?

You: email maybe

Stranger: no

You: hmm

You: it's okay

Stranger: (censored)@hanmail.net

Stranger: penpal

You: okay

You: nice

You: i like ryeowook

Stranger: it's real

You: so much

Stranger: who is ryewook?

You: are you sure you can get the signature?

You: in superjunior,

Stranger: yes

Stranger: it's real

You: ryeowook i mean

You: kim ryeowook

Stranger: ryewook idon't know.

Stranger: sorrysorry

Stranger: bye

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so?

my heart sounding like this

2009-07-07T08:01:00.000-07:00

"What you don't know Is that I lay awake Wishing you were here tonight"

-eminem, you don't know

"I miss you, I miss you"

- Blink 182, i miss you

"Give me a reason to stay constantly ignored"

- The whitest Boy Alive, don't give up

"If it's a broken part, replace it
If it's a broken arm then brace it
If it's a broken heart then face it"

- Jason Mraz, Details in the fabric

Mom, May i go there?

2009-06-30T08:50:00.000-07:00

herge museum

nice ha?

I wanna go there as soon as possible

Fly and drop me there!

Forbidden, but i do .....

2009-06-30T07:58:00.000-07:00

Google Translate , the end?

2009-06-29T06:02:00.000-07:00

волим те

אני מתגעגע אליך

넘버원

As primeiras pessoas me importo tanto

Vienīgais Adorable

Különleges

Красочный Но Черное и белое

経常しかし絶する

मैं तुम्हें भूल नहीं सकता

Tu-mi sunt de droguri,

ฉันจะขึ้นอยู่กับคุณ

You are.......

Nothing's gonna happen with this candle blow

2009-06-29T03:42:00.000-07:00

happy 16th Birthday for me!

Holiday? No, i wont write anything about that. I just want write a little quick update for me

1. Okay, because of my friend brain washing, I announce that i do like a korean boy band for now (Just for a moment i wish). I do watch Super Junior Video , and i secretly browsed their picture and save it in my computer . And badly , i always said "what a handsome

guy he is.......". Dont blame me, blame your self for not like this handsome boy.Okay, i like 3 out of 13, the chosen & lucky three were:

2. I bought this Thing, And i Love it so much, welcome my new watch! Anybody wants to give me a starwars, tintin or aladdin for my birthday present? Feel free to give it and you will get a big hug from me :)

-Star Wars Lego Watch-

3. I Add a Bigger Memory For my laptop RAM to play the sims 3. And, i don't like it! The sims 2 is a way better then the sims 2.

4. I adore this boy, really adore. More than that korean boy. This one i love so much, let me introduce you Jean Baptiste Maunier, the angels face but a demon attitude . Love his voice! And, this one is difference, he's french but now he stayed at new york to study acting.

5. Last But not least, I wanna say thank you for all my friend who said Happy Birthday Cika All the time for 24 hours on 27 june 2009! I Love you all and thanks for remember my birthday or see my birthday on your facebook homepage. Thanks a lot, and love you!

This one is My Bad Start

2009-06-13T20:01:00.000-07:00

I'm not happy with the thing in my life now on, so i'm not interested to tell anything i do and share my story in this blog. I've been so long not upadated this blog. Sorry, maybe i will leave this blog in a several month, i don't know. If my mood has come back, i will write my life thing again in this blog.

Anything broken and become a puzzle. I have to figured & solved it out. And i have to rebuild it up with patient.

Sorry, many bad thing had come, and i will prepare my self more stronger. Dear reader, i hope you understand me, and i wish my trouble will end soon.

-chiquitita

p.s: just leave a comment, but sorry if i won't reply it. But, i promise someday i will reply it.

Mumu

2009-04-24T23:53:00.000-07:00

CHECK THIS OUT CHECK THIS!

Mumu

i like it, really. do you like it? don't forget to link her!

2009-04-22T17:59:00.000-07:00

i woke up this morning, with a lazy face and with a feelings-oh-a-morning-again. I'm not hungry at all so i start the day with opened up my blog and other blog. One thing i realize on my blog chat box, ->>>>> there are some of the people who want to link me and i should link back. but sorry for not response your shout in a fast time, i'm too lazy -_- but after writing this i would response all thing you say. sorry for once more.

And , after realizing my blog i opened my blogs friend,acchan, and she posting a blog about how to making her breakfast, and, after that, i hungry. I try to find any food that interest me on my house, but zonk. Crazy idea across my mind, i melted the chocolate and immerse a wheat bread on it, i waited the chocolate until ossified. Okeh, and it taste-mmm-okay-that's a good try.

I came back to my lp, and tadaaaaaaaaaa i search a breakfast menu that i plan to make it in another day. (i'm not making it, but my housemade will do it). And some of the result are :

L-R: kentang panggang keju, udang tepung roti ,chicken teriyaki

that's all i've got for the next 3 day.

i took a picture and because i'm boring i edited it into a ghost mode haha funny, take a look, that's all for today guysss! c'ya

find a girrafe in this photo!

Mask Trick

2009-04-22T05:30:00.000-07:00

do you know a people who called twiddler ? twiddler is someone who manipulates in a nervous or unconscious manner (from the online dictionary), i hate them. Why ? it's really uncomfortable having a people like that around you, example (THIS IS JUST EXAMPLE OKAY?): your sister wanna buy a dress, but your sister told your mom that the one who want to buy the dress is you. argh, why do many people act like that, and why do i must be the victim one. Sometimes it's okay, but if they repeat it regularly, i can't accept that anymore. And unfortunately,the human i describe about is around me every time, every where like ghost-ing me.

Today, my mom came home from the hospital, i'm so glad of that. It means my mom is more healthy again, please pray for my mom healthiness guys : ) I have one week holiday, but i'm stuck with it and i dont like it. okay stop hating please stop hating.

mask? (got this picture from flickr)

Check List

2009-04-14T09:22:00.000-07:00

i really should go to sleep right now, my eyes is so heavy, but i have many task to do before i go to sleep.

I've been so busy this week, ahaha the fact is i'm not bust but i'm making myself into a busy thing

i organize my ipod album, song, updated and downloaded song , put some of the song lyrics.

Lately, i'm more fatter, stupid and easy to stress
I really love my mesis, i do really love it
I hope my maker this year would be very amazing thing and unforgettable moment for me, and my family. Why? There are many problem that across our journey, that (I hope) make us more closer, knowing & understand each other, and love our new proudly family :)
I'm participate on afs and i hope i'm the chosen one so i can go to america for one year to relaxing and have a new experience

yes, that's all i wanna said this night, i need to find an article to support my presentation, cya!

Current mood

2009-04-07T09:47:00.000-07:00

The whitest boys alive said :

Give me a reason to stay constantly ignored
Give me an angle that I haven't tried before
A guarantee for being honestly compaired
You want to live when life is achingly unfair

Don't make a move you'll look ridiculous again
You share no interest but it's easy to pretend
Don't start the action it will turn against you soon
No one is going to follow and you'll stand there like a fool

You left the people when the people left you out
Back in the suburbs you're craving for the crowd
Only minded now with defeats of yesterday
The mantra spinning in your head will keep it raised

Give me a reason to stay constantly ignored
I don't think I can
Give me an angle that I haven't tried before
Not from where I stand
A guarantee for being honestly compaired
Could not be found
You want to live when life is sakenly unfair
Stick around

Don't give up
Don't give up
Don't give up

p.s : i'm so busy doing many task and project, and ohhhhhhhh please i need a break, a touch of sand , and the sound of wavy sea

Me and You

2009-03-23T03:55:00.000-07:00

i know you
i ask you
i told you
i love you
i hate you
i kill you
i laught at you
you hate me
you love me
you dump me
you kick me
you hug me
you care to me
you are special for me
i lie at you
you lie at me
and we
dont know who are you and who is me
but we still
missing each other
promise ?

2009-03-20T06:19:00.000-07:00

okay, today, yesterday, a whole 2 weeks ago, i'm in the bottom of my life. I feel so weak, so uncomfortable, losing my own emotion, and its bad. I feel so desperate and i don't know who is my self. I'm still not come back to my real life, i dont know why, i enjoy my bad life now and feel that i should not come back as usual. It's me, my new me, i hope anybody can understand and accept me like before, dont know.......

but,

i scared if people judge me too over, i hope my differences did not make anything changes ,we'll see

p.s:

Mark Chapman had just shot five bullets into John Lennon. He sat down on the sidewalk, took out a book from his overcoat pocket....and read several pages while waiting for the police.

The book was J D Salinger's "The Catcher In The Rye"

now, i'm reading that J D Salinger's book, and i love it

boredom

2009-03-11T18:25:00.000-07:00

little updates!

wee hee i will come to this concert soon:

i can't wait any longer, oh my gosh it should be very cool concert!

and now i'm saving my money to watch this perfomance, wish me luck that somebody help me to buy this disney on ice ticket! i have to watch this disney on ice, because maybe there will be prince ali ! oh nooo

that's all, and i will change my layout soon, this layout is awkward, c'ya

2009-03-08T08:39:00.000-07:00

i can't sleep and i don't know why it happen to me, and i should sleeping now.
my brain didn't let me go to sleep, but it's hard to open my eyes and i feel my face hot right now
aaaa what happen with me?

Let see what can i write now
1

2

3

4

.......... nothing

I love Tintin, i hope tintin will come true and become a real man. But i hope my boyfriend is prince ali, prince ali is the Aladdin in a handsome way. Okay, stop talking cik. Well, talking about Tintin, lately i make a little layout for my project and i pick the Tintin theme. It's kind interesting, because i never make a layout for something real, i will post it here , take a look"

actually, this the cover

and this one is the main page

thats all i want to tell you! c'ya! i hope i can sleep now,wish me

it's a hard excited new days

2009-03-03T05:00:00.000-08:00

it aint started yet
but i will restart it soon
so let see
what happen with me
and the wheel will spinning fast
and you will see
i still happy
without you
thanks for all your kindness
but i'm too scared
if you are to perfect and i need you all the time
so i will try
not to obsessed with it
dont worry i still love you like before

photo memoir

2009-02-14T22:29:00.000-08:00

as i said before, i will upload my babies , kids photos. here it goes

sejujurnya, gue pas kecil suka naked. hemmmmmm

I have a good very gud week-end

2009-02-14T08:20:00.000-08:00

Hari ini , wah seru banget. Standar sih, ke pim, tapi.......
gue kangen banget sama kara , eh ada izra pula, terus ada kiza terus ada sasha juga. Pim hari ini rame, banyak temen gue, jadi seru deh. Jadi tadi gue saman, tapi kalah yaudah sih gpp juga, baru pertama kali. Hehe, but surely, today is a good day. Happy valentine everybody ,
and one more
happy birtdhay Iyo, vabrio.

love, chiquitita

Yippie!

2009-02-09T01:16:00.000-08:00

Happy birthday! Happy birthday! oh once more with a happy face i said Happy birthday!

well, i send him an email, here it is :

Wow, today is 09 feburary 2009 my oto san is having a birthday : )
Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday happy birthday happy birthday to you!
Let's make a wish....

Hope your wish will come true! And i hope all the best thing will come to you.
I send you a postcard , sorry if it's too late, but i hope you will happy when the postcard arrive . hehhe

and, guess what ? he replied : )))

here is the e-mail :

Oh!Thank you for your message.

09 feburary 2009 I'm 41 years old.

I was born in 1968 09 feburary.

In 1968 world famous event was The 19th Olympic Games in Mexico City.

& one of the famous hit songs in the world was "Hey Jude" by The Beatles.

& one of the famous hit movies in the world was "Planet of the Apes".

I wish your hope come true.

Thank you my daugther Chika!

Yes, that makes me happy, really : ))

today is the old day

2009-02-05T03:58:00.000-08:00

1. Udah lama banget ngga online msn

2. I have a secret, deep secret, a mysterious secret, unknowable secret, it's my secret.

3. I will talk to him soon, or lately.

4. Lagi sibuk ama tugas sekolah dan saman , ya, saman.

5. Abis liat-liat foto pas kecil, dan foto mama papa. And i'm sure that:

I love my small brother, hanif, since i was a little
My Mom is very fashionable and beautiful when she was teenager
I always smile see-ing my mom and dad picture, it seems warm
Yes, it looks that i'm more cuter when i was a child HAHAH

maybe i will submit some photo soon, kalo udah ga sibuk kali ya

6. Lagi sering laper, dan pingin banget makan apapun yang ada di iklan hemm

7. Highschool best moment is now i think, i love my class, sayang udah semester 2 :(

8. The last, i want to inform anybody that my name is cika not chika.

huff, chiquitita

Little notes

2009-02-03T05:38:00.000-08:00

I'm tired. Many task to do, and a surprise test, yes i hate that. Many problem come and go, but i enjoy it so much. it's colorful you know ?

well, do you believe in best friend meaning ?
: )

I miss her so much

2009-01-29T02:46:00.000-08:00

i have a friend , i call her sebi. i don't care what people called her. She is my friend, nope, my best chair mates , my best friend , my friend who i care so much, my............ many more.
I just met her on 9th grade, and now, we were separate because the school we went to. She went to labsky, and me, to the 8 highschool.

at the first month of my high school day, i always, always call her as many as i want. yes, all the thing, all the story i share to her. maybe, she know all the thing i know. i love her so much, really i mean it.

I always remember, we liked to play a kriwel kriwel stupid game, heard the blink 182 song, talked and told the story of movie, played kings of convenience guitar , made an origami bird, went to the javajazz festival and she slept. everything, i think i still remember that thing.

Today, i would share my feeling :

Sebi, i really miss you. I try to phoned you, i have a story, something bad happen to me, and i felt like i should talk to you. But, everytime i called you, you never answered it, i believe that you didn't mean to do it, i know that you are so busy. And it's okay for me. Can you call me back ? i need you : (

there was a day when i could phone you, but i'm too happy. i want to told all the thing, but i couldn't. It feels different, i don't know why.

Sab i want you to know something, even you are so busy, and not answering my phone, and i know that you didn't mean that, i do think that you are the best i ever had, my lovely listener.

from your friend
cikuitita

Flat

2009-01-27T01:19:00.000-08:00

ih boring dehhhhh . haha you know what ? i delete my facebook
and then? masa gue pingin buat lagi
gengsi dong
yaudah ntar aja kalo lagi mood buat lagi
tapi pingin delete plurk deh , tapi kasian -_-
bosen ama hidup nih, do something new deh yang iseng iseng
haha, i hope someday i won't delete my bog
yes, something new : ))))))))
ngelanggar rutinitas seharian seems fun
atau
bolos ? alone ?
sounds really interesting for me
let see

upside down

2009-01-24T04:17:00.000-08:00

it really contrast
i can't tell you why
but, yes, you better not know
disappointment coming through my day
and i whisper "what can i do ?"
keep saying no no
what happen to me ?
it really contrast
i love bright
but the dark is in front of me
help
i need help and sun shine that hug me yesterday

Lonely

2009-01-21T01:56:00.000-08:00

i'm not belong there. but i keep looking at it, want to be there. But one thing for sure, if i were there, i won't like it.
tapi mauuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu :( jealous ah
ha ha ha ha

school sucks. many homework. tired.

Bad beginning with a warm story

2009-01-19T00:45:00.000-08:00

January 2009
the first month of this year, begin with something horrible for me
i love
December 2008

But , you make me smile
i need nothing
i already got heaven
that's perfect

Hell bye bye

My step

2009-01-18T03:32:00.000-08:00

i miss you but i need to forget you
run, run, run
sorry, i need to forget you immediately
you have to know
i used to care to you and love you so much
before that day end
and thats it